The other day I made the mistake of being too open on my facebook wall. I was having a moment of raw honesty, coming from a deep rooted conversation I had with a friend. We were analyzing the state of our society, and the spiritual livelihood around us. In short, there are those who are using a spiritual verbiage for personal gain, without having a spiritual existence or knowledge. I am seeing it happen more often where I live and it’s somewhat baffling. I felt compelled to share my thoughts. Without articulating the meaning behind it, I came off sounding a bit blunt, I was told. Even If I had the best intentions behind what I was saying, or coming from a good place, I have to continue to remind myself that words on social media can vastly be misinterpreted in many ways. The reader may not hear you, then take everything you say literally and out of context.
I write with a strong ideology, sometimes on how I am feeling at the moment. I am either feeling passionate or feeling like an advocate, but not everyone knows me well enough to have understood the actual point I was trying to make.
A few hours later I deleted my postings, because it wasn’t necessary for me to hold that conversation anymore. I got what I wanted out of it, an understanding of human condition. I saw good and the bad side about being open. I heard the vibrations of chatter, and even if people weren’t commenting, they were having an opinion. I am sure some were wondering if I was in a mood of some sorts, because as a whole, I am usually posting something light and easy. the funny thing is I was in a great mood, I usually am, but I can’t denying myself of analyzing what’s out there and what’s on my mind.
The next morning I saw a handful of postings on speaking in kindness and on what you say is a reflection of oneself. Sure, there is truth to that.. For me, ones true self comes from action. I never mind what people say on there, I don’t judge that… because I have no idea what they are feeling or thinking. We are all being affected by some thing… While I have no clue if those postings were an indirect response on my postings, or if everyone was having a moment like mine. I have never once claimed to be perfect or wise person, and certainly always speaking in kindness sounds great on paper, but it’s not honest. Life and people can make you think in different ways, and it’s important to look at all of it. much of who I am on the day to day is kind, supportive, giving, and thoughtful… but there are few days I am speaking outside of who I am, because that gives me the understanding of where life is right now… In my present moment, living in Venice, there is much to learn and understand. The point is to acknowledge it, rather than deny it, then sugar coat it.
…. . So I sit here on my personal blog, feeling a bit freer, knowing that I can only better myself by being true to who I am… even if in that moment it’s about having blunt tactics, knowing not everyone is going to understand me, and that’s okay.
more importantly for myself, it’s about refraining from posting deep thoughts or statements on facebook
Until next time…. Stay tuned.